Becoming a meat eater... Part 1

Before you condemn me to meat eater hell, my fellow veg heads, know that I am truly saddened to make this drastic step. Now I know to any vegetarian, hearing that eating meat can make you actually healthy sounds like a load of bullshit, I know, I was there once. But for some people, being vegetarian is extremely unhealthy and dangerous for an anemic.

Sometimes no matter how you feel about it, it might be more healthier for some people to actually NOT be vegetarians. I am an example. After over 4 years of solid vegetarianism, I'm throwing in the soy. I'm not going to lie to you all and say this is a choice I'm absolutely thrilled with, I'm actually petrified. But after some reflecting over my past choices and realizing after being slightly anemic as it was, I have only created a bigger problem for myself. Not to mention, I've had a really tough time with hair loss, which is in fact due to my vegetarian diet.

For some people, becoming a vegetarian is the healthiest choice they make in life. But some people just aren't healthy as vegetarians, I again, am this ridiculous example. Why? Because I am a naturally chubby girl and a diet based on any amount of carbs is detrimental to my weight. Sugars have replaced fruits in some circumstances and breads have taken the filler of protein. Then there is the science of it all. No amount of vitamins, supplements or soy products can help with a substantial loss in protein once you've dug that hole. And my hair brush, blood tests and even sex life can tell you that.

My current weight, hair loss, and blood have taken a huge toll just because I wanted to stay away from eating animals. But, even as I write this I feel less and less guilty about my choice. I have spared animals for my health for almost 5 years, now it's time to take care of myself. It might sound horribly insensitive, but I'm going to do my best to tread lightly on the earth and still enforce cruelty-free options.

And though this all probably just sounds like me defending my reasoning, it is what it is. And yes, of course, it helps me feel okay with my decision. Now I just have to wait for my subconscious and stomach to properly catch up. Just know, that this will not be an easy thing to do.

 Because of my lovely wandering brain, I still have gut-wrenching images pop in my head every time I even think of eating meat. So like I said before, this is not going to be easy. But since I couldn't keep myself healthy as a vegetarian, I now have to back track and wonder if it was ever a good decision for ME, no one else. So if this becomes a way of treating my body with a little respect, especially when it craves something and creates a healthier me, I'm willing to do it. If not, I'll probably be back.

Thankfully, I was never a judgmental vegetarian, I didn't try and sway people and in no way am I trying to do the same with vegetarians. I am just simply noting my preference and seeing what comes out on top. I may flip flop, or I may make myself ill, but I'll be doing it, not judging myself or others who choose to differ from me.

So here's to a new chapter, a chapter where I can finally have that shrimp I've been craving for years now (the only thing I missed) and hopefully a more healthy one.